Kein-Licht

There was a time when we were three Three drops of blood on snow. On a blank canvas, we were free In a world that was ours to know. We were three small stars Dancing in a sea of navy blue. An endless melody without bars A friendship pure, and strong and true. But then you ran away Seeped into the page. Left the world in disarray Leaving behind pain and rage. Three is now two Left alone and confused. Still willing to catch you While feeling discarded. Abused. The lure of "greater riches" Something we did not provide. I'll leave you to those b*tches See how long you survive. Those drops of red have faded Those bonds can be

Once I was told all ghosts were dead But there's a ghost within my head. Something that I used to be Something in which I once believed. Something strong, left to cower.   I was never a damsel in the tower. There's no dragon keeping guard Just my thoughts, cold and hard. There's something that took my place Uses the same limbs. The same face. It's got no face this monster of mine Only influence that strengthens over time. A parasite, dependant on the host Destroying the one needed the most. Weaving a web of confusion and lies Until you're the only one you despise Something old left in the ashes Something meaningful in the g

The whole of my brain is a circus My skull is the red and white tent. My neurones wobble on unicycles While clowns scatter thoughts and ideas. The length of my tongue is a tightrope With no safety rope attached to my back. I stumble, slip and forget for no reason Falling through language and sound. My five senses are magicians tricks Something to amaze and astound One minute I scarcely believing When in the next; the secrets out. The heart of my soul is a theme park The tracks twist, turn, and plummet For now I have you, my prisoner Sit down, belt up, hold tight. My heart is a forgotten treasure chest Waiting for a di

Hold me like you used to Speak like I pray you did. I'll whisper how much I love you Do what my heart forbids. I've got nothing but the memories And the void you left behind. We were once two allies Now I count the tears I've cried. The rain drops are unforgiving The wind carries your voice Nothing that I'm living, is being lived by choice. Hold me like you used to Speak like I pray you did. I'll whisper how much I love you Even though our hearts are dead.

How long must I wait? For a moment that tyrant time will dictate. When our hearts supernova and collide When I'm the shadow by your side. How fast must I run? Before I gather armfuls of the setting sun And return them home to you While the light paints the world anew. How many tears do I cry? Before your fingertips wipe them dry. Before my heart is crushed by this noose While I succumb to personal abuse. How many nights do I pray? For the day you take my heart away. While my walls crash and hit the ground Leaving settling ash and the absence of sound How many words do I use? To open my heart. Leave the words to infuse. Lo

Was it worth it? The question swoops around the cavern of my dreamless thoughts. Maybe it was. Even now in my rare slips of sleep I can tread the worn fibers of the carpet stairs and smell the almondy fragrance washing from the kitchens. Who knew such a beautiful fragrance could cloak such dark motives? Then I hear the tiny sigh as the ghostly apparition of myself slips into the ornate dining room. I wake screaming... I close my eyes, inhale a lungful of air to steady the double-time race of my heart. Right now the sweet, buttery almond tart will be being garnished bellow stairs in the kitchen, ready to be carried up and placed, regally, in

Make me a blank canvas With nothing to prove. Correct all the blemishes I've nothing to lose Compose me a silence Made out of sound Make me a soundtrack Echoing all around Rewrite me a story, Script, breath and words Reform the letters Into words that need to be heard. Correct my hard drive Reverse all the pain Return the girl who was Like any other. Exactly the same Take what you hold Unlock my heart For only you hold it - The key to the start. But... I can't correct Imperfect features and lines For I cannot change Soul, heart and mind I'll never be her That's not what fate wants. From my broken heart There's not

There's something on the system that NASA can't track down A kaleidoscope of colour permeating our sepia ghost town My rainbow supernova With every raced step, every hurried word, each stuttered breath You're pulling me closer, waking me again. Saving me from a death My saving grace. Laughter sounds better with two. Certainly better with you I'm being given those precious moments I'll never renew My ray of light. I've been watching your melodies rearrange the skies Nearly as perfect as the world captured within your eyes My harmonic collision. I'm viewing this all from afar; trapped behind my reservation Too scared of falling to

Would you notice? If I wrote my name in condensation Across icy panes of glass? Would it be lost in translation? Would you carelessly wipe it clear with your sleeve? Oblivious to the loss. Never to grieve. Am I a ghost, something of insubstantial material? Vain attempts of solidarity thwarted into the ethereal. Empty atoms, and hollow emotions swirling in winter air Every nerve and sinew stripped down, laid bare. I wait in chilly solitude, sitting on the bloated moon Watching as sunrise disperses me all too soon. Tiny heart shaped daggers are seated deep within Cause of death. Just seconds to live. Breath in. And I rush back, ma

There's red flooding out my veins as I rip our posed photographs down from the chambers of my heart. There's indigo expanding in my lungs as I drown beneath the torrid currents of mauve storm clouds. From my mouth drips a liquid silence. Echoes of long forgotten syllables, words and laughter.   Quick silver streams snake and loop their path down the valleys of my pale, hollow cheeks. Ice bulldozes its way directly to the heart. Towards something like pain. It requires numbing. Threads of meaning disappear in its path. Infernos rage in the core of my brain, heat stabbing its way down towards my spine. But I still cannot gauge where